The Literal Worst

Labels: I hate them. I personally think they're stupid, and pointless and that they give society a reason to judge others and create false stereotypes.

It all started last year when I started to kind of change my music taste and style and really became who I currently am which is apparently labeled as "Hipster". Let's be frank here, I hate the word hipster. Really, it's the worst. How does one even define a hipster when in fact it is "mainstream" to be hipster but being mainstream is so not hipster?? In other words, being hipster is a paradox that I can't wrap my mind around.

My roommate last year, Claire, decided to point it out to me that I was a hipster. Of course I refused to believe, and still do that I am.

Shortly after on a shopping trip at Urban Outfitters, my own mother called me a "hippie" upon asking if I could buy a shirt there.

To my luck I spent my summer at Disney World "hipster-free" and wasn't told once...at least so I remember...I could be wrong.

And a few months ago, my current roommate, Robyn, asked me as we walked into the mall, "Rachel, are you a hipster?" and of course my appropriate response was an outrage of why anyone would consider me that and going off on a rant.

And several weeks after that, a good friend said I was 25% hipster...who even knows what he thinks the other 75% is....ha. Thanks, as always, Ryan.

AND yesterday...what a nightmare. First, at church I was told by another person that I am...87% hipster followed by my roommate saying I'm a full hipster. Later being told by another old roommate, Abby, that I'm a hipster and taking the buzzfeed hipster quiz getting the result "insufferable hipster scum: you are the worst" Or something like this is a common answer I get on any buzzfeed quiz. ALWAYS WITH THE HIPSTERS.

LIKE WHY. I SERIOUSLY DON'T UNDERSTAND. I really don't see it. And then...here comes the ultimate confusion - a group of people over at my apartment attempt to tell me I'm a hipster. I honestly do not see it. Plus I could name you hipsters and point them out. I'm not a hipster. I refuse to believe so unless someone can sit me down, and explain it thoroughly to me that I am such a human being. And clearly that isn't possible so....good luck world because I see everyone as...well...HUMAN BEINGS. That's really all we are, right?

SO STAHP THE LABELS, OKAY? Please stop. They confuse people and don't make sense often times. (: Also, it's the idea that it separates us as people. If we choose not to label people, maybe the world could just be a happier place.

Coming to Terms With Your Single Status

Does anyone even read blogs anymore?

Anyway, I swear there's a generic set load of crap that people have to say to single people. For example...

• There's plenty of fish in the sea
• The next one will be it!
• You deserve much better
• I'll set you up with my friend! (they never do)
• You should date your best friend
• etc etc etc

NO. STOP IT. There's a certain point you hit after being friend-zoned so many times that you're just done. And yes guys, girls can be friend-zoned. So stop your complaining about how the cute girl you desperately wanted to date friend-zoned you and that I can't relate because OH, the stories I could tell you.

This past weekend, I got the chance to really sit down with myself and look back on life and ask why my dating life has been such a failure. I realized it hasn't been. Dating just isn't for me, at least right now. I looked back and realized that every moment that I've been genuinely happy is when I didn't have to bother liking someone and simply took life as it was.

In other words, I have personally chosen not to believe in romantic love right now. Why? Because every moment I can relate to the words "romantic love" it is associated with pain, hurt and tears. So can you really blame me? Now don't start some bullcrap argument with me about how if romantic love doesn't exist then I wouldn't be here and blah blah blah. STOP IT. My life, my choices. You don't see me walking around hating on you for being "in love".

I have a lot to blame on my current environment, I go to a school where dating is apparently the most important thing in your life, not school or building friendships. Not to mention valentines day was just this past weekend, and the majority of my friends are either in relationships or budding relationships. My only options are to date people from church, school or work. Church experiences with guys - SUCKED REAL BAD. School experiences - I don't believe in dating someone you'll probably ever see in one semester plus I don't talk to people in my classes if I don't know them. What's the point if you'll probably never see them again? And work...ha. I work alone.

So yeah, I'm just here kicked to the curb as a twenty-something that has never really dated anyone or kissed anyone. Actually, I'm probably seen as "undesirable #1" (yes that was a harry potter reference) because ....

1.  I'm asian - lots of guys at this freaking school automatically steer clear from me because of my ethnicity. HI, HELLO I'M ACTUALLY AMERICAN AND PROBABLY THE WHITEST PERSON YOU'LL EVER MEET. Also I refuse to date asians...sorry not sorry.
2. My political opinions are the complete opposite of the majority of my school...yay utah. 
3. I'm just really outspoken. LIKE REALLY OUTSPOKEN. 
4. I won't change myself to impress someone. Take me as I am, or I don't care.
5. I'm not the smartest person, but I can get by, I mean I freaking made it into BYU

But you know what? I'm content and really happy with where I am. Chances are, I probably won't ever date anyone at my university due to all of the above, ha. And I'm actually really okay with it.

As the wonderful Rolling Stones once put it, "You can't always get what you want, but you get what you need." And right now, I need to focus on everything in life BUT dating. I'm sure one day, it'll actually feel easy and I can associate it with happy things. But for now I'm going to just hate on it like nobody's business because being single means I can wear whatever the crap I want, look how ever the crap I want and do whatever the crap I want and not have to care about what someone thinks of me. Plus, if someone truly did like/love me for who I am, they would obviously accept my everyday habits.

So here's to post #1 on my blog and the single life! Live it up, because soon enough you won't be able to do all those things single people do.